Post Secret

At once i stop writing and forget that this is my world, that this is not the field i belong. but one day...one night.I found someone sketching on his drawing pad, trying to figure out an image. Silently making an art of his own imagination, but i don't have any idea of what's  mystery behind it.

One of my friend told me that when you write you must have the courage.Courage to tell all the entire things on your mind, courage to express your feelings and ideas.your doubts and beliefs. Your perception about life. Your emotion when you fall in love.

 freedom. you are free for whatever words you write unless it can't violate human dignity.Courage and freedom to tell the world that your afraid. Afraid of losing someone, of being embarrased, of being out of place. Afraid of being threaten like a trash. Afraid to fall, but if happened, willing to stand up and fight again.

Courage and freedom to tell the world that you're angry, sad, alone, and happy. Happiness that you acquire in a moment but gradually vanished. Happiness that didn't last.

Courage and freedom to tell the world that you are inlove. Inlove? But to whom? To someone, to somebody.

But what if that man started to treat you like nobody else? Can you still have the courage?

I must...I should...but everytime i think of the image he is trying to figure out, i'm afraid that I haven't have a chance to see that. never.So I just post it as a secret.

He is a man with a very few words, a mystery man for me.that i  have known only a few things about him. A man who prefer to be silent but deep inside him are lot's good thoughts he can share. He is a man that whatever kind of mood i have can still manage to make me smile.No. A thought of him make me smile. A man that give me the reason to bring out the best in me. A man that make my day bounded with colors. As if everyday  is "Valentines day". A man wherein i can find that magical silence. the sparks that i haven't felt before. Some said that when you find that silence don't let him go., but how? If he found that silence to somebody else.

I know life must go on. I just have a crush and so what? and so what if I'm inlove with him? and so what if people tease me? and so what if he just ignore me? atleast i have express what's inside me. Afterall i just being true to myself.

For whatever the consequences ...

I do not care anymore...

But if one day he found out this secret ( i know it will) , i hope when i enter the room he can still manage to smile at me., and i hope i can still have the courage to stare.